Life

When you have something to do everyday, and suddenly one day you have nothing to do, what would you feel? I feel bored definitely; so bored that I would die because of it.

I wonder what would I do? Playing games is out of the questions, I don’t really have any particular games I want to play. The consoles is at my friends house. The PC used to download stuff. And I am leave with the walkman to hear the same ‘ol song over and over again.

I could go out and play but then, I’m to lazy. With the global warming and stuff makes me wonder how some people can survive being so active, not to mention some of them is doing useless stuff.

So, here I am, lazy and bored, thinking about life. Then it came to my mind that a person’s view towards life changes every time. At one point they say A, and at another point they say B. I wonder, is life is that subjective? How can we make life to be, objective enough?

A purpose driven life, I daresay that is what we all are searching. Having some purpose, even if we were to be a cleaner would change our perspective perfectly. I’m not sure how, but I never seen one before, at least in real life. But I do contemplate in a way on how a person might think about life when they have an objective.

It would be like living a story – a pre-written story just for us. Isn't that cool? Our views are somehow focused to the objective, not having unnecessary thoughts and in the end for others they might look like a robot.  But then, we just need to do what we only need to do, no excess effort. I wonder how would one feel?

Even so, what is the pro’s and con’s on living between a subjective life and a objective life. What’s so different? I don’t know, since I don’t know much on how people that has found their purpose in life thinks.

Life, so mysterious.

Sleep

I used to complain how I am lacking of sleep.

Now I am beginning to regret saying such things because now I am sleeping whenever and wherever I can. I don’t know why but, heck, even a polar bear cannot beat me.

I wonder why? And I am eating like crazy. Sadly I did not really gain much weight. Still underweight, just a tad little under the limit.

I reckon maybe the overdue stress makes me feel tired. I wonder.

On the other hand, I want to write about something but, I feel a bit tired writing about lame stuff. The world issues somehow bores me, more than a Looney Toons can make me feel.

Sometimes I feel like this:

Rest in peace my dear...

Kawaii deshou?

Siblings love~

The one who died...

One of the kitten that the friendly stray cat gave birth to four cute little kittens.

It made my day. All four of them was so cute and fluffy and, damn, I just love them.

Then today, when I went back home, I got the news that one of the cat died. He was weak and had his leg broken...

I wonder what happened to him. I feel sad and angry. I did not notice this... I could not do nothing...

Rest in peace dear. al-Fatihah.

The world and stuff.

When I watched Discovery Channel today, after a long period of time, I realized that I am not quite updated with the news of the world today.

I do know what is happening, but what I do not know is that the details and the follow-up stories.

For example, about global warming. Greenland glaciers is melting at an alarmed state. Even the researcher feels anxious seeing the reading they took; even worse, they scale it at 11 - in a scale of 0-10.

The same thing kinda happens at Alps. These 150 years it has lost more than 60% of its original volume. I'd say it's like a mountain that went on diet. While some thinks that these is nothing more than a propaganda or just a normal cycle, the suffering that we gone through and more importantly the Earth gone trough is real.

Why do we need to deny all this? Is it hard to abandon something for the sake of living in a more healthy way? Is it hard to live without gas? It is hard to plant a tree? Is it hard to recycle?

It is not. We are lacking of conciousness and effort. While we think that a decade is a long period of time, bit by bit time flies buy and suddenly it comes. Perhaps even sooner as things never goes the way we plan; more like, we never plan anything, God does.

Politicians should focus more on their job and raising awareness to the people of the greater issues at hand. It is not that hard to postpone a stupid quarrel for the sake if improving life quality. America for example should improve their economy first and raise the security and life level in their own country before trying to go and be a busy body on other countries affair.

All countries need to do the same. First world or third world, they are all the same. The difference is the richer one country is the better the survival.

Then again, the richer the country is, the more polluted it is. The same with moral degradation - directly proportional to wealth. I guess it's true that advancement with only physical in mind is nothing more than a poison - it will corrupt the minds of the people disrupting the flow of the society.

When I think about this, all the problem we are facing today is because we are too ego, too proud, too greedy.

And we are being too stupid. What's the use of having a mind when we don't use it?

'O God, what will happen to us?

The day before the Judgement Day

Tomorrow is my review for design class, slightly nervous...

My models in action. LOL

I like how the shades came out.

Interior space lightings.

The black smudge is on the glass NOT the model.

Top view. The shadow is quite nice. Second floor btw.

I hope tomorrow will be a nice day because today is not. I lost one set of my drafting drawings, and I hope the lecturer have marked mine. 'Cause if not, I will be considered to have not submitted.

Now all that's left is a few more drawings for drafting before this Friday and exams on the following week; and then I am FREE for a whole two weeks. Unless duty calls me - somehow I regret joining the club.

Random stuff...

Just about to finish my horrid drawing, now taking a rest. I don't know what to think of right now, cause I am kinda confused. The days before and the days before the days before; and so on. I don't know what happened to me, maybe I am bored, or just plain sick. I am sick now actually, but well.

Tomorrow is the presentation and yet I still waste my time lazing around doing nothing. I did not even watch anime. I wonder what is happening...

I read something on death and it is said that people who are going to die changes as his death comes nearer. I remember somehow one good man said to me,

Life is like an arrow, shot by God aiming to the bullseye. Either the arrow stops at the end or stops in the middle, it's what we and the environment decides. We die when we stop at the bullseye, or when we are hit by the wind.

Well, yeah, anyway, I somehow feel that maybe death is coming nearer to me. I don't know.

At any rate I want to die in my room when I am sleeping, buried near my grandfather's tomb.

And after I watched all the anime this year; and Decade; and Shinkenger; and uh... I don't know.

THE END

Radial organization, common yet so hard to understand.

The interior is to make people try to peek inside and guide them.

The best view?

After a hectic day trying to find buildings for Building Construction and Sciences, finally I finished my model. It seems that it did not take a long time to do the interior part of my design, much to what I expected from my earlier estimation.

Oh, to Blovvfly, why I need so many cubes? To be precise I need to make 50 cubes and with openings and what not, for my assignment in design class. It will test my understanding on the design principle: Hierarchy, Symmetry, axis, rhythm, progression, contrast, datum, transformation, et cetera; and the organization principle - for this one I choose radial. Sounds hard?

Other than that, after visiting the church somehow I feel that Malaysian Christians are somewhat suppressed. I'd say because Malaysians are still too old-fashioned in their way of thinking. Well, anyway I am thankful to the worker there that are very supportive to use - giving us many information. By any chance if you read this post, please know we both are very thankful. You has helped us a lot.

For now, I just need to concentrate on my presentation drawings and the case study. Next week is drafting week.

I wish that my torrent speed for the SNSD file is faster... If only I could watch Yoona face and in action, I'll definitely have the energy to go on for three days non stop.

My dear lovely Yoona~ Sarang he!