Making up decision is hard, especially of it relates to life changing situations. I just had this one experience. My heart swayed from one choice to another, and it was a horrible experience. The worse thing is when it happens it slows down everything you do. And it won’t ever help you to decide also. Note to self after this: Never stop doing what you need to do when the time comes.
The dilemma I am facing is whether to skip to degree or to continue to diploma. Both has it’s own merits and demerits. My first choice is to not go to degree. My lecturers and other friends tell me to go. At one point I wanted to go, but when I stop and assess things, I think I am not ready for degree. I think I can manage when it comes to certain aspects, but I don’t think I can manage when it comes to manual rendering.
I think I need to gain more knowledge and experience, and when I do get into degree I can do it with ease and comfort. The challenge is quite a big difference, and I wonder if I can really manage.
My senior said to me, going through Semester 6 is the biggest burden you will find, and if you can manage through it; you can manage through anything. I also believe that what I am pursuing is not certificates, but the knowledge. I think I can miss a lot of basics knowledge if I skip. Not to mention the difference in standard. I rather take my time and learn rather than rushing to learn everything. After all, I am not a prodigy or whatsoever. I’m just a normal student who likes to learn.
That’s for now I guess. There’s a lot to think after this, and again note to self: Take one step at a time.
