I’ve finally said it. Finally I told her what my feeling is, this new feeling that I am uncomfortable with. Hopefully everything will be as normal after this. It may take a while for this lingering feeling to be gone from me. Hopefully it will be a fast process. Loving you is not what I expected, although I do love you, a lot as a friend.
Getting into romantic relationship is not something I can bear right now. Not to mention that being in one with you can seriously jeopardize our friendship.
I wish you all the happiness in life.
8 comments:
lets be professional n answer my question...just act like i dont know u..n u dont know me..(honestly i really dont know u..sigh~)
i love script writing..n i already have about 3 stories.. mainly bout love.. reading your blog make me realize that,u r one in a million dude..
honestly..im attracted with your persona..umm the lonely guy..with no heart to love or let anybody love him... is it ok if i want to make a story bout u? plis plis plis...n..can i copy a few word or statements in your blog? its ok if u dont agree with it..just asking...
i have a problem actually.. u n your 'dont need love' problem.. mine is 'love doesnt need me'...
haha..
bye n have a good sleep...
oyasuminasai...
OK then.
It's more like I can't love. 'Cause the old scars still hurt I guess. Plus I have a lot of other commitments.
Love is many things. For me it's a whole lot of things.
emm..glad u wrote back... yeah..the wound/cut can be heal..but still it left us with ugly scar...
there are so many way/thing we can do to show our love...
sometimes,to hurt is also love (mine is this one..because if i continue to love that person..other people will hurt him much more..n because i love him so much..i hurt him 1st by leaving him go b4 other people get the chance of hurting him...i cant watch somebody hurting him..
i've tried to forget n forget... try to love somebody..but the truth is...i can never love anyone else like how i love him..
they can ask me 'do u love me?' 4 so many times..but my answer will be 'yeah..sure..of coz..y?'
n that is why i choose not to love..i dont want to hurt anybody else..
but i believe that one day..someone (always wish its a prince with white horse) will come n save me from this curse..no matter how long..i will keep waiting n waiting... ok..thank u very much for reading my story..i feel a lot better..
b4 its to late..i want to wish U 'SELAMAT HARI RAYA, MAAF ZAHIR & BATIN' nice knowing u.
this is my number 017-3373817...in case u want to share your probs with me.. ;p
if u call or sms me..i will give u chocolate as a present.. (now im trying to bribe mr.shiro..gosh!)
shiro...i hope u will keep writing..dont worry..even if nobody read it..i will...i'll listen to u even if u just breathing...dont get me wrong.. people might say your story or your post is only words n letters..
but to me..its like having u in front of me,talking to me bout your life,feeling n everything.
i'll be here ok...
so dont u dare to give up!
if u didn't see my comment anymore...the only reason is
im no longer in this world..
that is my promise.......
*be a good boy will u? :)
I won't call or SMS you. Don't make a habit of giving you phone number openly like this.
You are contradicting yourself. What's the point of hurting him to protect him, but in the end he ends up so hurt, that he can't be normal anymore?
I think in this case you are taking a really dangerous route. Sometimes while the intentions is good, it can be a rally bad choice.
I'm going to be busy. Don't think I am going to celebrate Raya like usual. Though anyways, Selamat Hari Raya.
Assalamualaikum..
its ok if u wont call or sms me.
what do u mean that he cant be normal anymore? r u talking about him being a gay or something like that? or the fact that he will never trust anyone or love anyone or even worse..he wont believing in love again?
Dangerous route? this is another thing that i dont understand..
thanx 4 ur advice..
sorry...the meaning of celebrating hari raya is to be with your family..your loved one..this is the time where u get the chance to reunite with all your family members.. i supposed u still got your parents n siblings rite?
so..no matter how busy u r..its not going to kill if u spent a little time with them.. hey.. i,ve come from from broken family.. when i was 13,my brother trying to raped me..u think how am i supposed to think n feel at that time?
i never trust anybody especially men after what had happen..
then my youngest brother died..because of cancer.. to me.. be far from home really give me peace..
but still...they r part of me..their blood still run through my veins..
nway thanx... really..i mean it...
im sorry..i think i will not be able to keep my promise..
this is the last time im going to disturb your blog..
so..do take care.....
selamat hari raya n Assalamualaikum..
He could be like that. Though begin gay is much worse compared to being not able to love.
Future or family. I think I choose future. How can I protect my family if my future is bleak. I got to submit a whole lot of work right after raya. Can't really do anything about it. It's not like my kampung is near.
Quite a tragic life you lead there. Maybe there's a silver lining to it. Who knows... Hope that you'll get stronger with that.
See you when you decide to stop by again then.
Wassalam.
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