And that’s just the least I need to worry about.
2010 is going to be a junction of life of which I think will bring me to a new world. Friends are taking their own path, struggling, discovering and many more. With and/or without me. Somehow it feels sad. For more than 7 years, it has always been ‘us’ and it was fun and hectic.
I always wonder why there’s a vast road ahead of us that we can’t really go hand-in-hand together. There’s all good reason to it, I know but hey, who would not worry?
I am afraid of the new world I am venturing into that would change me. Or worse makes me loose my precious past. Yes, it is more important to cling on the present and future but the uncertainties are taking it’s toll. I rather hold on something that is certain rather than not. Who knows what could happen.
There’s a lot of uncertainties and doubts in me. It make me further vexed to know that I am not prepared to make a leap into this new world. There’s too many stuff I need to learn.
I don’t even know how to make friends. These past years all my friends were friends not because of my initiation. Rather, it was a natural grouping and what not that bonds us. I wonder if there’s a differences in friendship for those who started it and the ones who are offered.
Too many stuff to think, and little power to act. I could go crazy from this. I know some who has.
I wonder. I dream. But it does not go. I wonder what will happen? For one I hope I won’t lose my precious friends and won’t change (for the worse).
